This blog is going to take me a bit to set up. I don't really know how to do the pictures and all that good stuff. So for the first couple months, just hang in there with me.
I thought I would start this off a couple days before little Mr. Ryder got here. My last appointment was 2 days ago. I was dialated to 1 cm. His head is really low. And his due date is in 2 more days. So any day now... Ryder will enter the world! I'm very excited.
I'm not really nervous or scared about labor. I understand that there is going to be pain and it's going to feel like it takes days to have this little guy. But I want to be able to enjoy as much of it as I can. I'm opting out of IVs and drugs. I'm asking for dim lights, music and hot showers. I'm looking forward to walking around with my dad. And having my sisters in the room with me.
I think I'm more nervous about getting this whole labor thing started then I am about the hours and hours that will be going into it.
But I can't wait to hear his first cry. To see him wiggling around as he comes into the world. To feel his skin on mine. I know that being a mom is going to be the most amazing thing in the world. I loved being pregnant. But I think I will love growing and learning and teaching with my little man even more.
I can't describe these feelings. Not to anyone. And Ryder gets a little look into them because I have been writing him letters through out this whole thing. So some day he can look back and see how life was for me, how it changed and how I wouldn't do anything to make that different. Because this is the path God had set for me... and it couldn't be more perfect.
Next time... you will all get to meet Ryder!!
